I saw a really hand-some boy today, and dumb as Im..,I stared and started to drool..

Suddenly the boy was looking back, and I find it very embarrassing! Akward moment!

 

Beside that moment with that boy.. I have been on the beach all day, AWSOME! c(=^__^=c) 

So now I got nothing to do :( So, I think I going to play some video games and be like " Kill, kill kill! Mohaha!" 

Sound great, dont you think? :D 

 

What kind of games do you guys like to play? :D Comment and tell me!

 

As I write rain, I listen at all the rain that falls outside my window.

 

Its been a normal day, woke up, did my hair rutin and got dress, jumped around like Super Mario and killed mushrooms and where like a princess in a little black skirt, so cute Im! 

But since it started to rain I was like.. NO WAY! 

I was in that mood that spiderman was when he probably thought "why is life so seriuos?"

 

 

 

Yesterday I told you that I was going to train today.. but yeah, I didnt do so well as I thought I would. 

I only was out for a power walk, so I feel a bit bad, but the bad weather had take all my happiness away today! 

But the traing will continue!  

 

 

 

 

 

Before I end this "big" update, I want to ask you guys for a favour, and that would make a profit for both me and you as my loyal reader! 

 

What do YOU want to read about in my blog? 

and is it anything YOU want to know more about? For example more about me or more about something random.

 

Comment your answer, and I will try to make changes for more fun reading! 

 

 

  

  

 

 

I will update later, Pokémon and beyonde! c(=^__^=c) 

 

Have you ever had one of those moments when you waking up and dont know what do with your life?

i have those moments more and more aften..Sometimes it realy scares me, and maybe that because I got a lot of different phobias that can really can mess things up, sadly but true. Maybe lot of you just thinking that is a waste of time thinking on the future and what to do next, and I understand that because we live now, and maybe not later, but it depends on how long time forward 'later' is.. oh, to say that, really scared me off o.O

 

So okey.. to the big question.. What will I do with my life? 

I got so many dreams, and wishes and thoughts about what to do, what do make, what to come up with, and how I would make it perfect..but the big pieces are missing, but I trying to make it fit any way.

 

 

My biggest dream is.. not only to fit in, but someday MAKING OWN MOVIES! 

But, with out any computer is seems useless.. 

An second dream is to be happy again, that seems right, huh? 

 

 

One question to you guys: If I started to make  short movies, would you watch them? 

 

Now, tell me if you are thinking about what to do with your life and what life gouls you have! :') 

 

xoxo

 

" Love with find you when you are fighting like a hero" 

 

 

" you aint killing it infront of you because you hate it, it because to defend all that you love that stands behinde!"

Saturday..
Im childish..
Watching teenage ninja turtles and eating some candy!

Im into that mood again that Im planing and thinking "what should I do in life?" And I dont have any anwsers, and that sucks, hard!

But.. Some day.. I will be a great person!

But, right now, candy and some ninja turtles!

xoxo

 

 

 

 

 

~ Need To Be Free As the Wind. My Mind Is Opened And Im Ready To Take It All In. I Breath Slowly. Count Every Breath. So Scared Of That My Heart Would Stop Beat, My Blood Would Disappear From My Veins, And No More  Fresh Air In My Lungs. I Start To Smile, All In A Sudden, My Worries Fade. Im Free As The Wind. My Mind Is Openend And Im Taking It All In! ~ 

 

 

xoxo, 

 

 

~ Suddenly, I was alone. Afraid of everthing around me. My own shadow appears, and I cant look. Its something  with the devil horns that make me uncomfortable. Maybe, if I close my eyes, just for a wheil, everything will be so much brighter, just maybe. I sittning in a small room, surrounded by darkness and infinity emptiness. In one of the corrners a little girl with violett hair appears. She coolt scars all over her body, and her white short dress is covered with blood. Im shaking, as she rise her head and show me what she had in hear hands..Her heart was still beating in her hands.. That little girl is me! ~ 

 

 

 

 

Today it was the first time on three years that I've sat my foot into a lake! SCARY! 

It feel really akward, but Im so proud of myself for have manage to do it! 

Actually, I förhindra I will return to the water soon, Because my skin havn't react jet. 

So maybe I got rid of my allergy to water, woop woop! :'3

 

Tonight I go camping and seting up a bonfire, so see you in next update! 

 

 

 

Im up to a new update, a Quick one, because now its some gaming time with my bro! 

 

The game has already started so, I'm on my way with my rifle, as usual, tihihi! (a' 

 

xoxo, 

 

 

 

 

 

Perhaps  it isn't alot of girls that really is into movies and games that containing zombies, cannibals, mutants, and inbreds, but Im like obsessed with that kind of shit! 

 

Like in my secret I watch any kind of horror wheil the darkness is surranding me.

Even like to see zombie movies and eat candy or nuddle and pretend that Im eating zombie brains, fingers, or even intestines, if Im lucky! I know Im random! (a) 

 

Who dosnt like to see things that deeply inside scares them? 

I perfer it all because I find it fascinating. 

Maybe I should study about the human brains and our own reactions to things, because that would be a cool thing to do, actually. The human brains! Suddenly I feel like I would be a bro of Victor Frankenstein! o.O 

 

My thoughts ends here! I start to creepy myself out, and that is not aften that happends..! 

 

I just stick with the game, I think. 

 

Someone more that like to play war games? 

My favorit weapon is the old version of rifles! 

I just cant miss the target, and its ending up with headshoots!

 

Thats all for now folks, comment and tell me what favorit weapon you have when you play games! 

 

xoxo, 

 

 

 

 

 

'yello my awsome readers! 

Hello m8s! :D 

 

Yesterday my parents came home from beeing on vaccation and of course thehaves bought alot of things!

Yeah! I knew they would buy me something because I had asked them about it, but I didn't expect them to buy so much, so Im in chock, and really happy! 

For once in my life it starts to feel like Im actually me, and only me! 

 

They have bought:

 

- Three shirts, and lots of thights and knee socks with cute bows on! c:

 

- alot of socks, because Im a master to misplace them so bad that Suddenly Im totaly oufood socks! 

 

- My bro bought me a tank top, a yellow one, its so hovisits different colors! 

 

- a lot of perfumes, because Im sort of addicted to spry on perfume all the time. But Hey, WHO dosn't want to smell good? c(^__^c) 

 

- Then my mother was cute and bought me hair colors, because she knew how badly I wanted to dye my hair! 

So dear readers, Im no longer blonde! I have dyed my hair to purple/pink color, and actually its so cool, I really love it! The best of it is that my mother though it suits me, yeah! :3 She also bought me a sign to hang on the wall that says " När allt känns hopplöst, Ring mamma!" which meaning " When everything seems hopeless, Call your mother!". Isnt that so kind and cute? I love my mommy!

 

- Of course I got a lot more stuff, like some Hello Kitty things, make-up and so on! 

 

But now I will paint my nails, so see you later, dears folks! :D 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I hope you like it, and will check me out everday to help me develop my blog.

 

My parents and my bro have been on vaccation for about 11 Days now, and today is the day the coming home!

So its alot to do. I want to make them comfortable and relieve for them by carry in bags and stuff. All though they have drived a car for about 6 hours, and that can be exhausting, and because Im such a good daughter I want to welcome them varmly.

 

Of course you all wonder why I didn't Went on vaccation with them, and its pretty simple.

It is because I didnt feel like it, and had a lot of things going on in my mind so, I decided to stay home

and work with mmy own mind, and try to get my confidence back. And guess what, I completed my goul, and for the first time for a very long time it feels like Im back to beeing me again. Thats so great!

 

But to make a long history to a shorter one, I just ending this first

update since restarting with to say: I hope you will continue to follow me! c(^--^c)

 

Hear you soon!